Sunday, December 4, 2011

19.


For some, it's the start of their college years. It's a time for them to party and have fun. For me, it's a scary age. It's just the beginning of my life.. what I do now, in time, will form my future. Stress is taking over my life.. thoughts of what I will be in 5, 10 years is all I think about. Most 19 year olds aren't worried about silly things like that. But photography is all I know. It's all I breathe, eat and sleep. I so badly want to wake up one day in New York City, on my way to a paid shoot with Vogue.. or just a paid shoot in general. Photographs have shaped who I am today and the person I will be in the future. Without it, I'd be that girl who cares about nothing but what I'm going to wear that night to John's party, or what classes I need to be taking in order to graduate and "make something" of myself. I'd be lost. I'd have an entirely different view of the world. 


For all those high school students out there who are excited about going to college just because they so badly want to get out of their small town: wait. Life will pass you by before you know it and you'll suddenly feel lost and won't know what to do with yourself. Some amazing things have happened to me in the past year and going to college would have changed all of that.. It's okay to not know what you want to do with the rest of your life.. Let it just come to you. Don't rush fate. Your small town isn't so bad. You'll realize that with time.

Friday, July 29, 2011

I was feeling so inspired while laying in my hammock - watching the clouds form characters from my imagination. I was reading Edgar Allan Poe and thinking about my next shoot. I really want to do a shoot based off his poem, "Annabel Lee". It's so soft, yet dark. I like the whole idea of obsession and love. Hopefully soon.. :)





Thursday, July 28, 2011

I need to start posting more often! I'm sorry guys :/ I've been in a little rut.


But I promise to post more pictures and journal entries! 
I saw my Grandma today.. She visited me. I haven't seen her since March and it was probably about a year before that. She's my best friend. I can tell her anything and I know she's not judging me or looking down on me. I'm not as close to her lately because I've been so busy and I haven't had time to visit her. She's moved closer though.. So, I hope to be able to see her more often.


It's nice that she believes in me. I love talking to her about my future - I start feeling so inspired every time I talk about it.


I'm ready to leave this small place! My dreams are way too big for it.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I'm saving my money to leave South Florida. I want to live up north. This time next year, I'll be leaving.


Cya latuhhh

Monday, July 11, 2011

I want to feel like a youngin' again :( It's no fun growing older..

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Shoot with an ANTM model next weekend! I'm very excited! I'm going on a mini vacation this weekend with my family and boyfriend. We're going to Islands of Adventure.. Lord knows I need to get away from this town and work :/


I'm so ready to get away from this place. I want to move to NYC with no money and no place to stay. I just want to go and make it on my own; experience everything the hard way. Soon... I promise.


I hate working. I hate feeling like I'm 30 years old. I hate being so exhausted that I don't even want to shoot on the weekends anymore, I want to sleep. I'm tired of being tired. I want to be an 18 year old while I can. I want to have fun while I can.


But I so badly need the money.. and I know that no one will pay me for pictures. I need my job.. I won't be able to shoot if I don't have any income coming in. 


I don't know what to do..

Monday, July 4, 2011

Happy 4th of July! I'll be taking pictures for my job later today and I'll try to update :)

This is my sister, Julia.



Tuesday, June 28, 2011

It really aggravates me that my mom doesn't understand anything about this industry..


I get so excited about shoots and some of the models that I get to work with and any time I tell her anything about them, the first thing she says is, "Are you getting paid?!"


NO. You can't expect to get paid while building your portfolio and gaining experience.. the industry doesn't freaking work that way! God, it's so frustrating! And then she says that I'm not getting anywhere because I don't have schooling. There's NO WAY in hell I'm ever attending art school. I've learned so much in the past year at my little job at the newspaper and doing shoots on my own, then I would accomplish at art school.


Ugh, I'm so fucking annoyed. And then on top of all this I have to finish looking at 1800 pictures and editing them by the end of this week. That's usually very simple, except the fact that I can't make up my damn mind about the edits and my computer is slow as hell!


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Thursday, June 23, 2011

Want to know the difference between you and I?


I try. I try my hardest and I don't give up. I don't take 'no' for an answer. I'll do anything to make it. When I'm pushed down, I get back up. I try harder than the last time. But you know what's most important? I don't knock anyone down along the way. You can hate me all you want and you can say the nastiest things about me.. but in the end, all you'll be is stuck; rotting in this damn town.. still wishing horrible things upon me.


I wish you luck in everything that you do in life... and hope that maybe one day, you'll realize, life is too short.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

A horse with no name

Photography: Jenny Woods aka Bunny Jenny (me)
Model: Annelise Adams







Thursday, June 9, 2011

I've realized that I don't like my photos anymore because I don't feel anything when I look at them. I'm so worried about everyone else liking them, instead of myself. Isn't that all that matters? What I think? I don't get how I've been so blind about it.. 


I have a shoot tomorrow. No makeup artist. No stylist. Just me and the model. 


I want to connect with her. Just like my old pictures. I'm tired of all these mua's and stylists. They make my photos beautiful but that's all they add; beauty. I want people to feel something more when they look at my pictures. I want them to feel what I'm feeling. I want them to get to know the model and myself through the photograph. I want to bring stiff bones to life. No more poses. Everything will be shot candid and unexpected. 


I need to find myself again. 

Monday, June 6, 2011

Hello everyone!

Just a little update! I have a shoot on Friday with a model I've worked with before: Annelise :) I'm so excited! She's the sweetest and uber easy to photograph. It's indian inspired and there will be some nudes! Finally, I get to shoot some! Haha, can't wait to show you guys!

Here's a few photos of me. I'm all smiles lately :D


Sunday, June 5, 2011

Took a couple pictures for an old friend :) Shoot on the 10th, 18th, 25th and July 9th. You guys will be seeing new stuff sooon!